And..here I am. Just got back from a 2 week trip to Italy and remembered just how grateful I am to be two years out! It’s amazing how your mind works…
The last time I went to Italy – Cancer was the last thing on my mind. It was 2015, my first trip to Europe and I was a different person. This time…I looked at things a bit differently.
There was, first, the fear of leaving the U.S. Being away from home. I was afraid…a fear I’m not used to feeling!
Then, there was just a renewed energy when I arrived in Pisa. It was a great trip and I didn’t want to leave.
I get back to the US and the thoughts that I thought were just a weird, temporary thing….came back. The wake up at 3:00 am every morning with the thoughts that cancer is back…somewhere in my body. The “if I ate better, worked out more, removed some unnecessary stress from my life” thoughts in the middle of the night that just consume me….. I never would’ve thought that 2 years out of chemo, this would go on. But it’s real and I wish it would go away……..and then……
After a great conversation with my sister…as usual….I feel better. She basically told me that she would feel the exact same way…probably every day for the rest of her life, if she had gone through what I did. Her words brought me peace and made me feel normal again.
The reality is that I live each day happy. I love life…before cancer and now….and I won’t let that beat me…ever.
Cancer doesn’t discriminate…..to anyone going through it..NO ONE FIGHTS ALONE. Stay positive and do not give it the power. Stay strong! FIGHT! OH, and eat cucumbers. Lots of cucumbers…..(remove the seeds if they bother your belly!)…..
Sending you love and light..always. And a shout out to my love Jill…my peaceful warrior….stay strong beautiful lady…..I LOVE YOU!
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Reading my beautiful daughter Nancy’s incites about her episode with Cancer has touched my heart more than she could ever know. I always knew that she is strong and is a beautiful woman inside and out. She kept us all strong throughout her ordeal. Together with her strength and her sister Sue’s love, knowledge of medicine and determination to get only the best care for her sister, got Nancy to the right places for treatment for this horrific disease. It breaks my heart that Nancy has to carry the fear of cancer with her in her life – but- she will always have the support of her loving family, the many long encouraging talks with Sue and the power of God and the Angels with her. You are loved so much my baby girl. Love you to the stars and beyond……hmmm, there is a star named after you….FANCY NANCY! Hugs, hugs and more hugs, Mommy
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