5 1/2 months after chemo

Well hello there!  I made it past my one year cancerversary on Jan 22, the day I was diagnosed a year ago…..my hair is growing in like crazy (and by crazy I mean….insanely with a mind of its own!) and for the most part, I am living life like nothing happened.  Deep down, there are often times where I suddenly am overcome with fear.  Fear – what if it comes back, is it already back, why does my leg hurt (can’t be because I slammed it when walking past the table lol), on and on….fear comes and goes.  I try very hard to just let it go and live in the moment.

The weight gain, hot flashes, short boy-hair will hopefully become a thing of the past because this isn’t about vanity, right?  No – all the things you go through with this cycle, things you never think you will get through, you, in fact, do.  The diagnosis, the surgery, the fear of chemo, the actual chemo, the side effects, the horrible foggy feeling in your brain, chemo ending which causes more fear, more surgery….all of it…. Allowing yourself to be sad when you need to be is fine, but finding the end of the rainbow and getting up and doing with a great attitude is what saves you.  There is hope.  There is light at the end of the tunnel.  You have to visualize it and pray it’s there because you will see, it does exist!

5 1/2 months later, I never, ever thought I’d be here.  I am grateful EVERY SINGLE DAY for every person in my life that got me through this.  I am grateful to be here and to be able to talk about this.  I just wanted to say hello and thank you for reading my blog.  Love and light to everyone!